as a person i feel useless. i know that im not useless and that to others im very important to them, but in my everyday life i feel uncontent with myself. i feel like a phoneix in a wood cage. i understand that im human and my mom loves me and my family loves me but truthfully im afraid of what they love in myself. the person that i am everyday is cool and all, but im just a person i want to be like a phoneix in the night sky as bright as can be and only those drawn to the beauty can see and those who cant even unerstand it can be asleep and resting for the day of work that comes to them the next day. i want everyone around me to know that you are in a place where you dont know where youll end up but when you do end up there prepare to be somewhere else again instead of being stuck in a hole. 

zion got really drunk last night with her sister i hope she didnt fuck no dude and me saying it is already an indicator that she could have and i have no control or power in this situation to change that right now like i can do anything yet i feel so trumped by a situation the world would view as nothing but to me it feels like the world.